I’ve got to have several chapters of my new book to my editor by Friday. I should be hard at work, but instead, I think I’ve gone down the rabbit hole!
For all of you Alice in Wonderland lovers out there, you probably understand exactly how I’m feeling. I chased my dream of becoming a best-selling author, just like Alice chased the white rabbit. Neither one of us knew exactly what we were getting into when we started running — only that a great adventure was waiting for us.
Now (figuratively, at least), I’m down in the rabbit hole!
While I love getting one step closer to my dream every day, things get a lot more confusing down in the rabbit hole than I ever thought they would be. Oh sure, I knew there would be plenty of work involved. However, I wasn’t prepared for all of the THINKING I would do down here. As I get closer to the due date for my second book (or, deeper and deeper in the rabbit hole), my thoughts are driving me crazy!
Just like Alice, I’m having full-blown conversations with myself. I’ll say to myself, “You can’t do it!” Then, I interrupt myself with a “Yes, you can!” That’s when the fear usually creeps in, and I tell myself, “I’m scared.” Then, the braver part of me says, “Of what?!”
OK, so I haven’t faced the threat of decapitation in a croquet match just yet (poor Alice!), but some of my fears have been just intense. I never knew it could be so hard to tell the difference between what you THINK and what you FEEL!
Of course, deep down I know I’ll get through it. I’ve finished one book, and I’ll finish this one. I just have to find my way through the inner-workings of the rabbit hole first!